A letter to my love

I can't do this, thought i could handle it still be with you when you obviously belong to another. You may be single in paper and in talk but in your heart i'm sure you know. Much as i've enjoyed every moment, much as i have nothing really to complain about the fact that you're not mine atleast not really means i can't be happy so i have to let you go. I need to move on.
So here's your moment, go get yourself together, take a couple of breaths tell her goodbye. I know it's hard to get over exes that's why i'm giving you time. If we are as amazing as we say, we'll pick it up when you're free to be mine, till then adios love. I'll miss you.

Frustrate me..

Today has been such a strange day. Been in a terrible mood all day now i'm overly anxious to see my little sister just her face puts me in a good mood such a doll.

Anyway, back to my bad mood. After intense soul searching and evaluation i've discovered my major cause of the anger and boiling rage. What I discovered wasn't too pleasing considering i can't really change this "factor".

So my question is how do I change me so I can handle myself appropriately during this angry moments. Considering the source is actually a permanent fixture in my life.

YNWA!

So today my sexy 11 boyfriend did me proud. Have to admit i was thoroughly tense before the game started but the moment the whistle went and the got that ball out in the field.. Smiley face. I'm exremely excited.
The bigger joy of it all ofcourse being that we were playing manchester united, a team i like most of the sane world hate so kicking their asses.. Words can't even explain.

Go liverpool!

Hallo happy

And like the true rollercoaster ride once you been down to the bottom the only way to go is up! :)
so if you haven't guessed it already this young lady is happy. Bouncing off walls type of happiness. It's such a good day. Got up early watched cartoons while having my breakey, prepared lunch for my family which had gone to church now i'm just chilling watching my baby sister play as i watch the news :)

Funny how contradictory my days have been in comparison to each other but i'm awefully glad that little nutty sadness thing is over.

Yeah..

Confused screams

So this is turning out to be one of those randomly emotional weekends! I hate this! I can't even tell you what is causing this sudden need to express, to vent, to scream out! Okay I lie by now we all know the main reason for this sudden burst of emotion but I know better than admit i'm weak. I know better than admit I fooled myself into thinking this little "game" we're playing is anything more than that.

I still toy with the idea. Alittle hope we could call it for something i really need. Not too sure what that is yet but i do need it...

Maybe i'll get it.. Just maybe..

Complicated

Love? Is that what I thought it was? Mad, angry.. All this emotions are way too many. Can't stand this up and down, yo-yo nonesense.
Why can't everything just make sense all the time? Human beings are a puzzle. Guess that makes me one as well, but i surely can't be that complex can I?

Sigh

Is it really love?

So here I am. Another day my heart beating fast at the thought of him. It's strange how zaney i get whenever he crosses my mind. I don't think i'm inlove though can't be..

I'm I?

Haven't really talked to him in a couple of hours and those felt like a lifetime. I'm so amused by this. I keep stopping to ask myself.. Are you 16 again? Lol! Quite fascinating how rejuvinating caring for some else is.

So no, I know i'm not inlove. Atleast not yet, but I sure hope I eventually i'm.