Tuesday, October 4, 2011

I've moved.

Hi guys thanks so much for all the love over the years. Sorry for my absence, I've been playing on other social sites. Anyway, I'm just here to say that i'm officially a wordpresser. So find me there. This blog was nice but, I've changed alot over the past couple of months. Chose to follow a path I have been only half following. So I figured why not start over on a brand new website. I might be back here sometime though considering how good blogger is starting to look, but for now check me out here.
Hope to see you there. God bless. xx

Tuesday, September 14, 2010


I realize my posts are extremely sporadic and that's not good at all.. To be honest though blogging doesn't excite me much plus I found other channels to get rid of my pent up anger which really leaves nothing for this place. Blog is not getting deleted but post will come when they come...

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Things that go bump in the night

I constantly find myself awake at 2a.m, 3a.m reading blogs and website, tweeting or just staring at the wall (yes, I mean literally) I'd like to blame it on coffee or excess sugar and to be honest probability of them being the cause is high, but even without consumption of either of the above I still have trouble sleeping early.

I've considered jogging again thinking maybe the workout will relax me, but that's not happening again in awhile. I've tried listening to slow soothing music, but that just gets me angry at the sappiness of the lyrics or if i'm in a weird mood get's me depressed. I tried making myself really warm.. Uncomfortable and impossible to sleep. And today, I even came to bed at 8pm tonite hoping to sleep, it's 2:30a.m. That didn't work.

So now I resign to the fact that i'm norctunal. A child of the darkness - i mean that in the most non evil way possible.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Fucking pissed off!

I started to write a blog, and i got all ideas.. It was deep, intense and full of emotion. I wrote for a while, it was the longest blog i've written. When I was done, i clicked post. And there was an error went back and it was all gone! A fucking waste of my time that was! Try again? Fuck that! I'm so angry right now i almost broke the laptop. Why on earth did I even try?

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Not just dreaming..

On days like this, slow with nothing much to do. Lying in my bed staring at the ceiling. It's heard not to think. Even harder not to imagine, envision a remarkable future filled with joy and all the worlds pleasures.
My mind wanders alot, I let my mind wander. I feel it would be pointless to live without a little dreaming, without my dreams I wouldn't be here and tomorrow.. Will be remarkable.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Destiny knocks too damn loud.

    I'm in a really strange mood today, i'm really happy cuz I have an opportunity to start something new and fresh, feels like the time for me to do what I've always dreamt has come (the what will be revealed when the time comes) yet on the other hand I feel this deep sadness like something has died, like I've just lost something.

    I would like to concentrate on the positive be happy that I've been here seen what I've seen and embrace the future with a big smile o my face but it's so ad to pretend that change doesn't scare me. to pretend that failure, doesn't scare me cuz it does. I face my future afraid.. who does that? Oh everyone lol!! I've kept pushing this forward for so long but now I realize you can't run away from your destiny.

   It's hilarious how you can envision something all your life but never do it not because the opportunity to doesn't arise but because you are too darn chicken to get off your you know what and make the dream a reality.

   I've decided, today to open that door, hope the grim reaper isn't on the other side.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

I'm glad I wasn't your type.

    I remember when it all came tumbling down, all of the nasty emotions that churned within me. I remember wondering what went wrong, and what was wrong with me. But now i’m looking at you and I see what you really are.. I look at her and… I thank God I wasn’t your type.